"I wanna get out, and build my own home, on a street, where reality is not much different from dreams I've had."

"So lying underneath those stormy skies, she said 'oh, I know the sun must set to rise.'"

Thoughts, and music. Occasional pictures.

I also run internationalgirl.tumblr.com
This blog is for my thoughts. I think a lot.

Melissa. 23. I hail from Los Banos, CA, currently living in San Francisco, CA. Acting major at The Academy of Art. Half Filipino, Half Canadian. Comedian, sarcastic. Crazy, but at the same time, crazy shy. People person, but at the same time, not a people person. Girly girl, but at the same time, not a girly girl. I'm a weird girl, I'm into things that most girls wouldn't be into.

Avril Lavigne, Paramore, and Coldplay fan. Extraordinaire.

I go beyond a pretty face, I have a brain that I use. I think a lot, and I'm curious about a lot of things. I'm open to learning.

I'm originally from a small, close minded town, called Los Banos, California.

After I graduate college, I plan on becoming an International Flight Attendant in order to support myself when I move to Vancouver, BC for Acting, instead of Los Angeles. While being a flight attendant, I will still try to pursue my dream of becoming an actress.

I love everything that is beautiful. I hold a lot of passion for a lot of the things I do, or believe in. I love music (preferably rock music), ice hockey, writing, traveling, making people laugh.

I love traveling. I've been around the world 7 times. Canada(3X's), Germany, Holland, The Philippines(5X's), England, Scotland, and South Korea. I will never stop traveling.

 

well…. a trip to LA in two weeks might change my whole life.

"and it’s been a long time of this"

it’s been a hard year, with nothing to show
from down this road, it’s only on we go.”

Some new opportunities might open up for me pretty soon. Being an actress, being Filipino, is that you have a choice to do acting over there.
It’s not really my first choice, but it’s something. I’ll give it a chance.

I feel like everyone is living their life, they all have jobs, relationships, a life, and I’m just sitting here in Los Banos. Doing absolutely nothing. I can’t get a job, no one will hire me…. I feel useless.

Whenever I get the motivation and positivity to do something, it just gets shot down. I was so excited about applying to be a flight attendant, but I never heard anything back.

I was planning on moving and being in Vancouver by now, but who knows when that’ll be. I can’t find a way out of this shit hole. There are no opportunities here whatsoever…. It’s hard to have faith and stay positive.

I seriously don’t get how people can be so cruel to each other, all for the sake of their social status. They’d rather have a million fake friends, instead of a few genuine ones. Those kind of people are useless.

I’ve always been an outcast, different, and a lone wolf, and I’m ok with that. Because I know that there are people who see the real me and love me for it.

I never really get how people care so much about knowing this person, drinking with that person, like who gives a flying fuck about the people you hang out with? They’re not gonna give two fucking shits when you need them.

Fall in love with yourself. Because someday you’re gonna be the only one you got.

Anklebiters, Paramore  (via apareciumjournel)

This song is so gorgeous. It kind of has a Coldplay vibe…. X&Y on their album X&Y.

I saw them for the 4th time last night, and it’s always an amazing show. The singer is always really sweet too.

I don’t think I’ll ever miss any of their San Francisco shows.

This is just one of the places where my Aunt lives in Bolton, Manchester. It amazes me… even though in small towns across Europe, they are still really beautiful and unique. It’s not like The United States. At least in Bolton/Farnworth….. I can go take pictures and brush up on my photography. 

I’m really hoping for this UK trip because London and Edinburgh are my favorite cities. 

I really just wanna go to a pub in London, have a drink… step outside (because it’s legal there), and meet new people. I wanna grab some Nando’s in Earl’s Court, take a walk down Oxford Street, get lost in South Kensington. 

I’m just ready for a new adventure. This town drains me down more than anything.

This is just one of the places where my Aunt lives in Bolton, Manchester. It amazes me… even though in small towns across Europe, they are still really beautiful and unique. It’s not like The United States. At least in Bolton/Farnworth….. I can go take pictures and brush up on my photography.

I’m really hoping for this UK trip because London and Edinburgh are my favorite cities.

I really just wanna go to a pub in London, have a drink… step outside (because it’s legal there), and meet new people. I wanna grab some Nando’s in Earl’s Court, take a walk down Oxford Street, get lost in South Kensington.

I’m just ready for a new adventure. This town drains me down more than anything.