"I wanna get out, and build my own home, on a street, where reality is not much different from dreams I've had."

"So lying underneath those stormy skies, she said 'oh, I know the sun must set to rise.'"

Thoughts, and music. Occasional pictures.

I also run internationalgirl.tumblr.com
This blog is for my thoughts. I think a lot.

Melissa. 23. I hail from Los Banos, CA, currently living in San Francisco, CA. Acting major at The Academy of Art. Half Filipino, Half Canadian. Comedian, sarcastic. Crazy, but at the same time, crazy shy. People person, but at the same time, not a people person. Girly girl, but at the same time, not a girly girl. I'm a weird girl, I'm into things that most girls wouldn't be into.

Avril Lavigne, Paramore, and Coldplay fan. Extraordinaire.

I go beyond a pretty face, I have a brain that I use. I think a lot, and I'm curious about a lot of things. I'm open to learning.

I'm originally from a small, close minded town, called Los Banos, California.

After I graduate college, I plan on becoming an International Flight Attendant in order to support myself when I move to Vancouver, BC for Acting, instead of Los Angeles. While being a flight attendant, I will still try to pursue my dream of becoming an actress.

I love everything that is beautiful. I hold a lot of passion for a lot of the things I do, or believe in. I love music (preferably rock music), ice hockey, writing, traveling, making people laugh.

I love traveling. I've been around the world 7 times. Canada(3X's), Germany, Holland, The Philippines(5X's), England, Scotland, and South Korea. I will never stop traveling.

 

Do you ever feel like you really want to get to know someone who is famous, or even just a little famous? Like certain people are really intriguing. But there’s no way to introduce yourself or casually talk to them because they have no idea you exist. I really wish I were an actress already so I could just make things happen, or mention something in an interview to let that person know. I hate how if you try to talk to them online, it’s considered creepy….

Our family lost an important friend last Saturday (the 20th).
My Mom met her at work about 3 years ago. Her husband was a patient at the hospital, and one of my mom’s co-workers suggested that she go and talk to her since she’s German…. (my mom is fluent in German). She they became friends. After her husband died, Dorothea was all alone at home. Both her son and husband had died of cancer. My mom was kind enough to befriend her and make her last few years a little less lonely. We even invited her over for Thanksgiving and Christmas.
She was in her 90’s but still tough and sharp as nails. She drove to the store on her own, ran errands by herself, made her own cakes and bread, she even made her own clothes. She even drove all the way out to Merced one time. I hope I’m that independent when I’m her age.
She was so sweet too. Her last piece of advice to me was to be tough in the acting business. Don’t be scared and just get things done.
I think about her a lot, and I can’t believe she’s gone. I will miss her a lot. She was almost like a third Grandmother to me. She is definitely someone that has made an impact on my life, and she is one not to be forgotten.

Our family lost an important friend last Saturday (the 20th).

My Mom met her at work about 3 years ago. Her husband was a patient at the hospital, and one of my mom’s co-workers suggested that she go and talk to her since she’s German…. (my mom is fluent in German). She they became friends. After her husband died, Dorothea was all alone at home. Both her son and husband had died of cancer. My mom was kind enough to befriend her and make her last few years a little less lonely. We even invited her over for Thanksgiving and Christmas.

She was in her 90’s but still tough and sharp as nails. She drove to the store on her own, ran errands by herself, made her own cakes and bread, she even made her own clothes. She even drove all the way out to Merced one time. I hope I’m that independent when I’m her age.

She was so sweet too. Her last piece of advice to me was to be tough in the acting business. Don’t be scared and just get things done.

I think about her a lot, and I can’t believe she’s gone. I will miss her a lot. She was almost like a third Grandmother to me. She is definitely someone that has made an impact on my life, and she is one not to be forgotten.

I’ve been so much better these days. I don’t really feel sad about the past anymore because I know the truth. Don’t miss him anymore since there were 3 other girls at the same God damn time. Why waste my time thinking about him and being sad over something that was never real to begin with.


For once in my life, someone is actually interested in me for my brains.

Played 7,273 times

nonamesavailable:

My Chemical Romance - Honey, This Mirror Isn’t Big Enough For The Two Of Us

Played 661 times

gigamusic:

Saves the Day - Shoulder to the Wheel

90’s/early 2000’s emo/alternative rock

A lot of it is really good. It’s all I’ve been listening to.

Played 447 times

I should just accept it all

so take care, and don’t go too far
I will miss you so….

I kind of have an affinity with this girl and book. Even though I have the freedom to go outside and do as I please, I feel still feel stuck in this town. Me and Anne are similar in a way that we both don’t get along with our Mom very well. Even though I love my Mom to death, we still have our differences. I don’t think any daughter/mother relationship is 100%.


Anne Frank is a remarkable soul. She held an intense power for thoughts and opinions that I never came close to when I was 12/13. This book has definitely become one of my favorites. 

I decided to read it because it’s a mandatory WWII book. Since I’m going to start reading my WWII books, this is a good one to start with.

I kind of have an affinity with this girl and book. Even though I have the freedom to go outside and do as I please, I feel still feel stuck in this town. Me and Anne are similar in a way that we both don’t get along with our Mom very well. Even though I love my Mom to death, we still have our differences. I don’t think any daughter/mother relationship is 100%.


Anne Frank is a remarkable soul. She held an intense power for thoughts and opinions that I never came close to when I was 12/13. This book has definitely become one of my favorites.

I decided to read it because it’s a mandatory WWII book. Since I’m going to start reading my WWII books, this is a good one to start with.

Been looking for these neat closes (alley ways) on google maps, to go to in Edinburgh. They’re a little hard to find, but so worth it.

Been looking for these neat closes (alley ways) on google maps, to go to in Edinburgh. They’re a little hard to find, but so worth it.

My 2nd favorite Coldplay album.

My 2nd favorite Coldplay album.

lol

I live in such a shithole. I’m just gonna say that no matter how popular you were in high school, it didn’t matter, and never did. It’s what you make of yourself in your years to come.

I think if I were to be like anyone, it’d be Robin Williams. Cheering people up, being generous, making people laugh, greeting and chatting with fans…. When I’m gone I want to be remembered as someone who lit up the room. Someone who was positive and warm.

When cancer takes a life, we blame cancer. Depression is a disease. Don’t blame the victim for losing the fight.

We lost a legend today. Mrs. Doubtfire is my favorite movie, and since I am looking to do comedy in film…. It’s important to remember that you shouldn’t care what other people think and just be as wacky as you can. He’s always been one of my inspirations in comedy. I found a quote that I will live by from now on. “You’re only given one little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it.” Who cares what other people think about you. Fuck them. I wish that I had his quick mind. He could come up with witty responses so fast.

When I learned about his passing, I felt like crying. The person who has given us Mrs. Doubtfire, The Birdcage, Good Will Hunting, Flubber, Good Morning Vietnam, and Hook, is gone forever. He was an important part of everyone’s childhood, one way or the other. He was such a kind, loving, caring, hilarious, quick minded, gentle soul. And the whole world will miss him. Even though he’s gone, he will continue to shine, make us laugh, and inspire for generations to come.